Take Me back to the start,

#154

2010-01-10T23:04:00.002+08:00

A lot of things on my mind that I would like to write about, but I doubt I have the time for it.

I'm a time-waster, I realised. I procrastinate and stuff. And when I get too busy, I lose the motivation to work.

School reopens tomorrow anyway. Zhixian and Shen Yang, happy birthday! Seniors, good luck! This year will be a better year. Maybe when I have the time next month after investiture, or if I finish the choreography for invest's performance this week, I'll blog about everything from NP chalet onwards.

It's a new day, it's a new day, it's a new Generation, new generation...

#153

2009-12-31T22:17:00.003+08:00

Last post of 2009.

Tomorrow better be a better year.

I'm not going to start another bad year,
but am I able to leave this year behind?

Sometimes, being alone is soothing.

Counsellor?

#152

2009-12-30T23:14:00.003+08:00

F!

Today's probably the angriest day I've had in my life so far.

Pissed with everything.
Especially with that special someone.
It didn't help that unexpected reasons did not allow me to complete my work properly too...
Cursed the whole day away, with frequent adrenaline rushes that resulted in me almost tearing down my room.

Idiot!
I think we both need help.

#151

2009-12-29T22:46:00.003+08:00

Um this is a little late, but

Thanks everyone who were present at the chalet!
It was a wonderful experience
:D

13 more days...

#150

2009-12-23T21:34:00.004+08:00

Haha, haven't posted in a very long time...

Holidays were mostly spent with nothing to do anyway, so I more or less didn't bother posting too.

Today was an extremely busy day for my otherwise empty schedule. Woke up the earliest in the holidays so far, at 6, to go for training. I would say it was, um, amusing, but I shall not describe what happened. It was great being with (half) of the squad though, especially Jingzhan.

Canteen was selling fried food today! First time in 2 years, or maybe because I haven't been noticing. I think they sell fried food every holidays because nobody really cares.

Oh, and I think I can finally 'full chain' a few extreme Tap Tap songs, after much practise before Investiture's meeting :D

After the meeting, instead of following Nick Chuan, DK, Brandon (Zhao Yong tagged along) to Plaza Sing's Daiso to get that 'unisex gift', I ended up going all the way back to MacRitchie to get my ez-link card from Bryan. From there, it was 2 train rides to Dhoby Ghaut, only to find that the rest were done shopping. Brandon helped me to get a gift, so I took another 2 train rides home. In total, I think I 'clocked' 5 rides on Circle line, 2 rides on Red line, 1 ride on Purple, and spent around $4-5 on PUBLIC transport today...

After a year of being Ortus 'tua peh gongs', I get to feel like a councillor again, and hopefully wouldn't be stuck in holiday mode for too long into the school term like I did last year.

And today, I met (coincidentally), the most amount of friends in a day. Danny at SALT Centre, broken ankle Kenneth at Dhoby Ghaut station and Enying one escalator away (they were not together), and Natalie on the way home from buying sticker paper for invest. 4 friends in a day!

At least sticker paper turned out successful; we wouldn't have to spend quality 37th 'bonding time' sitting in council room for hours on end writing 150 schools' addresses.

Last but not least,
Merry Christmas!

Next year would be a better year. I seem to have this feeling.

#149

2009-11-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

Okay, I think I'll try for BSC, but with my packed schedule, I doubt the school would let me go after all :/

If I get chosen, I would only have 3 days to pack/ prepare stuff, the school would have to brief both my parents and I, and administrative matters would have to be settled within those 3 days.

Stuff to do before turning in tonight:

1. Check school's contact number
2. Check AngLC's contact number
3. Prepare a list of what to tell/ check with the school regarding BSC
4. Pack extra set of spectacles

Stuff to do before flight tomorrow, preferably before 9.45am:

1. Call the school
2. Depending on school's response, email passport to school from Changi Airport
3. Buy a 'Percy Jackson' book! :D

Oh and last-last night, I happened to jump off my bed too fast and had an abraision on exactly the same wound I got during HSC camp. It was almost fully healed and then another abraision had to appear right on top of it >:(

#148

2009-11-20T23:14:00.002+08:00

Argh! Decisions, decisions! Now I have two rather major decisions to make before the end of this weekend, which is before I leave Singapore:

1. Participation in SSEF.
I really don't know whether I should go for it? Ms Sandra Tan wants us to participate, but I think our group is really cannot-make-it anwyay, and we'll just go there to get owned. But then again, mere participation awards a couple of 'across' ACE points and can probably buff my SMTP portfolio

2. BSC with December batch.
Gahh! Initially, I opted to go for BSC within this year. If I choose to go next year, it will be a rather huge interruption to my studies. Especially considering the extent of 'damage' OB Sabah had done to me, getting me all distracted and stuff. I might be involved in OM too.
October's batch was not an option; as the date draws near, I realised that it would clash with Council Retreat, and it should be (ExCo's) responsibility to make themselves available for such a major event.
When I realised I had not been chosen to go for BSC in December, I started making plans for the holidays, such as reading ~~retarded Percy Jackson children literature~~ next year's textbooks, losing 3kg, running/ jogging with Chenrui, convincing my dad to let me change my laptop so I can rot at home with GTA IV, and per[FAC]tion's chalet.
So shall I rot at home, or shall I spend a month and a half improving my Chinese in Beijing so I can sit for HCL O's next year with that extra handful of confidence?

Oh, and

3. Odyssey of the Mind (OM)
Three years down, am I willing to continue for the fourth year?

Tomorrow, almost my entire day will be spent at Uncle Winston's wedding too, so I won't have much of a chance to discuss my options with family and friends too. Mummy said it would be okay to wear black from head to toe, I hope I don't get killed/ cursed/ maimed tomorrow :/

(I'm bringing my white council shirt just in case)

#147

2009-11-18T00:16:00.005+08:00

Gahh, I'm rotting!

I'd initially thought I could go back to blogging everyday after the exams...
Everyday passes by so routinely (and uneventfully). No motivation to do anything useful. And the 25 hour day is back! I slept at 2am this morning and woke up at 1pm -.-

Perpetual nausea is back too. And my throat haven't had a 'good day' ever since school ended. It's always either inflamed, burnt by acid refluxes, extremely dry, or choked with phlegm.

I did nothing useful today, unless learning to hack/ modify program files and flying flight simulators consider as something useful.

Went to the police station too. Had to settle stuff regarding the misuse of my Ez-link card, the incident last time where my card was used to borrow 3 'foreign' books at Bukit Batok Library. I was told to try to identify one of the persons in the security camera snapshot, since I said that he looked slightly like a senior ~~(oops!)~~

Tomorrow shall be another sleepy/ rotten day again. Unless...

YES! I will go to the gym for at least half a day tomorrow!

Faulty tagboard again, takes forever to load.

#146

2009-11-14T22:18:00.002+08:00

Finally, last job of the year (I hope).

Bilingual Talent Camp was really tiring. And it didn't help that I was ill on the first day and tasked to come up with the montage on the second day.

Again, I think I failed as a facilitator. Well, at least I think my Chinese improved; I feel slightly more confident with Chinese.
And WongSM's son is freaking cute!

Somehow, it seems like something screwed has to happen every day of your life. I don't think I've every survived a day of not getting angry/ pissed/ sad/ emo/ any-other-negative-emotions before.

Today, an animal tried to 'exploit' me. Another hypocrite, as usual. I've no idea how somebody so irresponsible can become a chairman. ~~(But then again, he's an animal)~~

Elmer, Jing Zhe, Yi Zhao, Kevin, Wei Ren, Keane:
I'm sorry. Hope to see you in Hwa Chong.

#145

2009-11-05T22:03:00.002+08:00

Yet another week without posts.

Chairman voting was extremely rushed, I have no idea how we managed to run the show in the end. Everything was ready like 1 minute before consortium assembly.

The winner was sort of unexpected; most didn't see his win coming, I sort of foresaw the close fight during the presentations. Well, debators always have an unfair advantage for being the better speaker.

Somehow, the hippopotamus knew the ExCo results before they were released. Must have been leaked through the other hippo.

Results were ~~damn bad~~ weren't exactly very good, 2.67's the worst I've ever gotten for EOYs.

And then Council Retreat made me doubt the use of a council. For once. See, cynic? Why do people join the council nowadays? I don't see a concrete, justifiable and truthful reason why people join the council.

You would like to serve the school and be the bridge between the student body and the school admin? Why don't you just lie, flirt with girls, boast, and use council as a platform to satisfy your power cravings. Oh, and did I mention, it can boost your portfolio? Is that why you joined the council?

37th was decided today. I'm convinced I wouldn't be selected.
It's the end of my '09 council term.

Never thought about it...
The poles switch today?

#144

2009-10-28T21:34:00.004+08:00

Eventful day again, today.

Woke up from a dream which was a cross between Battlefield 2 and HSC. I remember the most vivid part was when everyone was gathering in scattered groups in some warehouse or something, when Song Ken threw a grenade. Shaun tried to dispose it by throwing it out, when it blew up at his feet and his body got blown away several miles (the warehouse thingy didn't have a fully covered roof). In hope that he might still be alive, we set out in a helicopter and several search teams to look for him.

Weird dream leh? Why do I always get these kind of stuff in my dreams? Anyone care to interpret? I'm on good terms with everyone running for HSC...

Went to the zoo with the elderly for Ortus CIP today. It's sort of considered under EOYA. First time being in the zoo after so many years liao, it felt a lot smaller than in the past.

One thing I really didn't like about the trip was that the staff at the zoo, most of them, especially those that come into direct contact with guests, are trained to speak with this fake accent. There's no identity, or as Timothy said, we (Singapore) has no originality. And we still go around commercializing 'Uniquely Singapore' when we are copying everyone? Even in school, SOME PEOPLE go around speaking with a fake accent, and even post songs on Youtube with that weak voice plus fake accent combo. How sweet!

Didn't really have much time for myself today, only played a few games of Tap Tap XD
Had to rush for EOYA briefing right after returning to school, then helped with the EOYA consent forms, and then go for HSC interview, which was dragged for rather long.

I must say, my performance at interviews is always screwed. The only interview which I breezed through was NP's ExCo interview, because I knew I didn't want any position in NP. It's pointless, I've lost all motivation to contribute to NP now, after countless incidents with hippopotamuses. Especially can't stand the chairman, he got his role because of a few licks here and there, and because Timothy and I were too demoralised to run for anything in this mirage organisation. It doesn't even exist, to get a position there. And what's the point of working with hippos?
I was extremely nervous at HSC interview. 1 hour before my interview, my heart was my pulse. At times, I even felt it at my tummy. The worst part was, my mind was blank during my turn, and I did not elaborate enough on many of the things that I said. My interview turned out to be one of the shorter few out of all the interviews.

My phone also finally (half) spoilt today, when I accidently flung it down 3 stories from the area outside the council room to the first floor. I was sitting, back against the railing, talking to Timothy, Yichen, Shaun, Bernard and Glendon about something, I think it was my experience at the zoo, when my phone slipped out of my hand in the midst of some hand actions and...
The screen's cracked, but the top half of it is still usable. Other than that, the phone's more or less fine :D

Oh, and today, I realised I hate the 2 Ortus hippos even more! And a chairman potential junior is going to turn into one too! GREAT! As usual, the hippo who treads along the river never looks at his own reflection. Everything are lies, empty promises, for the sake of washing other's feet? This doesn't make sense! I'm losing my mind, so are you. I can't seem to remember many things that happen today. Short term memory. Are you going to continue to sing? Or fantasise about teachers with large bodies?

I've never openly flamed someone. This feels good. If I were to write a song now it would be about hippos in the zoo.

Take a look at this:

Did you take the other path?
Can you ride your bike with no handlebars?
Just that you do not have a brain?

#143

2009-10-27T21:10:00.003+08:00

Sigh, haven't been updating my blog for a long time now.

A lot of events happened over the past week. There was HSC camp, Ortus chairman elections, paper checking, FOSH and whatnot.

Oh, and a lot of Tap Tap :D
I've become from a noob to a 'hopeless' addict.
And I realised how awesome Coldplay is!

Note to self:
HSC interview tomorrow and chairman elections on Thursday.
#5 more days!

#142

2009-10-21T22:29:00.003+08:00

Hah, hypocrite!

Blind, deaf, you do not see your reflection on a mirror, neither do you hear your own echos?

Good luck in life.
You're going to need it.

Yet again, another experience has enlightened me about your nature.
Did you evolve because of your selfish-ness?
Well, I thought so :D

Note to self:
I'm sorry, I've let you down yet again.

#141

2009-10-20T22:00:00.004+08:00

Where do I go now?
Is that option still there?

Honestly, I didn't expect myself to give that kind of performance.
I'm lost.

Note to self:
Reconsidering?

#140

2009-10-19T01:39:00.004+08:00

Exams are over.

I feel useless.

Idk how to put this, but...

I'm sorry.

#139

2009-10-11T00:40:00.001+08:00

Life position #3 now: I'm okay, you're not okay.

I guess I'm really pissed?

Idiots in your life that turn you into a cynic?

~~You've changed.~~

#138

2009-10-09T18:07:00.004+08:00

Yay I finally visited my blog.

Math and Biology left.
At least, they are the major 'mug-able' subjects left.

The past week was a really special week, I must say.
Special in a good way and in a bad way.

It was seemingly more relaxed and slower paced, with council work temporarily put on hold and the exam schedule allowing us to spend one entire day on each subject before the paper.

But I think I didn't do very well anyway. Especially today's Physics, from my best subject to one of my worst subjects. And there was a letter from the library sent to me saying that I had some overdue books: 2 Malay books, one about Muslim warrior or something like that and the other about Islamism. And there was one book in Tamil. All three books from Bukit Batok. Definitely can't be me, I think someone used my ez-link card to borrow those books when I lost it at the start of the year. As usual, he got pissed off with me, and started finding fault at everything I do.

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Oh well, cold war again.

~~Heh, this guy's damn cute.~~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BwNCLhhsYHw
Especially when the video lags, and he keeps shaking his head :D

After exams I feel like doing a cover for 99 Luftballons with Enying! Or maybe some other English song. Haha.

~~Idiot.~~
This is the part where you don't know what to do with your life.

I'm letting it slip...

#137

2009-10-01T20:25:00.004+08:00

Air quality is really bad these few days again, PSI reading today is 57.

Green laser makes a solid beam now, especially with all the dust particles in the air.

4 more days to go, going to be on a hiatus until the following week (or at least, until the next weekend).

Still losing some momentum ocassionally, though.

Note to self:
Concentrate!

/edit
Heh, I think I just realised, my throat hasn't healed for a week probably because of the air quality...makes my throat really dry. D:

#136

2009-09-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

Yay I conquered Chemistry!

And somehow, along the way, I realised Chemistry was rather interesting, and I don't hate Chem as much as I did last year. In fact, I sort of like it :D

Take care of your health everyone! Final stretch here!

8 days to go
(1 week and 47 minutes)

#135

2009-09-26T17:02:00.003+08:00

Oh no!
What are we doing to our world? D:

http://www.abc.net.au/news/stories/2009/09/23/2693643.htm

#134

2009-09-26T00:49:00.002+08:00

Posts are getting less frequent and a lot shorter...

9 more days only, and 1/3 of the class just fell sick. All from the left block again, this time it is sore throat and blocked nose. And on top of that, I'm having on and off fever.

Weak weak!

Even Mr Yap sent an SMB message about it. D:

#133

2009-09-21T01:16:00.003+08:00

Okay, over the past few days:

Friday: I forgot to do WongSM's facebook assignment. 长文缩短. I didn't know, when did she give? Anyway, I returned to class after rushing back from elections, and she gave me the worksheet to do. I sort of 'anyhow' did the worksheet. It was the fastest, untidiest, and surprisingly, highest scoring 长文缩短 I've ever done. 17/20 :D

But she minus-ed 2 marks for being late, which gets me a 15. Still an A1, but a very nice scar to my record breaking feat eh? :/

Saturday: I woke up at 1pm. Perfect time to turn into an owl again? Really bad stomach ache when I woke up, probably due to my delayed sleeping time but normal eating time. Which means between dinner until I slept and until I woke up, which was from 9.30pm to 1pm, I had 15.5 hours of no food. Anyway after that, I wasted the day away D:<

Oh and I realised that I could do SLS now! SLS totally rocks! I went as high as some of the female songs and my voice wasn't strained at all. Maybe when I'm better I'll start a band! Hee!

Sunday: Continued from Saturday, I realised at around 1-2am? Or maybe later, maybe around 4, that I haven't taken my Mefloquine tablets. Somehow I don't keep track of the time after 1, so that might explain my abnormal sleeping habits nowadays.

Everything as usual with a normal Sunday, except that I almost got owned by YFC final report submission by severly overwriting.

Monday: Oh it's Monday.
OH NO, 14 DAYS/ 2 WEEKS LEFT ONLY!

Weiren: Hey, next time Jia Jian and you want to go AMK library after Jiang tell me earlier hor, so I will bring stuff to go there and mug.

/edit
Haha, I'm feeling nausea again, now it's worse than ever :/
And seem to be foaming? Hehe I got poisoned by noodles!

Note to self:
Go and sleep now!

#132

2009-09-19T01:12:00.005+08:00

2010 elections are finally over!

Had meetings over and over again for the entire afternoon, regarding everything from next year's council structure to councillor involvement to elections. Plus, counting votes were tiring, and Mr Toh still wanted us to complete the relevant documents on the spot. Took away my afternoon/ evening from 3.30 to 7.30, but at least I don't have council work to do this weekend :D

After this, there's only ExCo selection and Ortus Night left for me to do. I'm starting to feel how close the end is :/

44 more days to go.

DanielO: Update me on Ortus Night soon, we might be facing the same problem as last year, the posters/ publicity issue.

Brenda & Shu Shien: Sorry for making you wait for so long and not turning up in the end :(

#131

2009-09-16T23:04:00.003+08:00

Hmm, I think I should take a break.

Or just post shorter and shorter posts until all my posts are of 'minimal length'

The air quality is really bad!
PSI's 64 today D:

19 more days to go

#130

2009-09-14T23:37:00.004+08:00

Stupid Kanye West!!
At least Beyonce did let Taylor Swift complete her speech in the end :D

Irregular sleep is bad! I think it made be crazy today; I couldn't think properly. During Math, I was asking Shuang Xing and Enying if there was such thing as lg². They said no, no such thing. Then suddenly, I started laughing. Idk why also, I just laughed until I started tearing. ThamSW probably thought I was crazy, and didn't even bothered about me, so I was left alone to laugh the lesson away :/

After school, I was in the Ortus Room doing work with Timothy, Yichen and Ryo (actually Yichen and Ryo were playing pool), when I came across something like lg 8 x lg 8⁹, and lg² appeared in my mind again. Somhow, I burst into laughter at the thought of lg², but like the previous time, I had no idea why! Hee, I'm crazy! Haha, there's no such thing as logarithm squared!

And I have this lump on the back of my left wrist, it looks like some dog-bone popping out or something. Has been there since yesterday liao, but today it looks bigger. A bruise? A sprain? It hurts a little when pressure is applied to it, but it is very solid, unlike a normal bruise.

A tumor?! An extra growth of cartilage?! Gah, I'm thinking too much!

Note to self:
You should sleep now.

#129

2009-09-13T16:04:00.004+08:00

Oh no, body clock major screw up!

Friday, I wanted to sleep at 3am, but ended up sleeping at 4am instead. Then I woke up at 12pm. Okay, at least I get 8 hours of rest.

Then yesterday I couldn't sleep because I was convincing myself that since I woke up at 12, I should continue working later. At 10pm I was telling myself: 10 hours awake, on a normal school day it's equavalent to 4pm, just returned from school!

So I continued doing my Math revision worksheets until around 4am, which was my target time to sleep, but I ended up talking to Timothy, Johnny, Yichen and Ryo on msn and doing 阅报心得s until 5+.

At 5.30, I sort of forced myself to go to sleep, before the sky turns bright and I won't be able to sleep by then. In the end I think I slept at 6am. -.-

I think everything started after iHope, when I slept at 1am that night (btw, thanks Hope-full '09 OT for the experience working with you all).

From then on, I've been living a 25-hour-day life, hence my sleeping time gets pushed back 1 hour everyday :/

Anyway,
Johnny and Yichen (and Timothy and Ryo), thanks for accompanying me for the past few nights/ mornings!

#128

2009-09-12T02:53:00.003+08:00

Your Type is
INFJ
Strength of the preferences %
Introverted 22
Intuitive 38
Feeling 50
Judging 22

Woah, I first did this 'quiz' on fb. Today I was updating my portfolio, when I came across some MBTI profiling thing. I went to search, And apparently it was that fb quiz I did. I re-took the test on another website and got INFJ too, which concludes that that fb quiz IS accurate. And I'm going to record it down in my porfolio. An entry from fb. Epic!

#127

2009-09-12T00:43:00.003+08:00

Yay, my Panda is working now! And it sort of auto updated from 2009 version to 2010! For free! That's why Panda Internet Security is the best <333

I'm becoming more and more of an owl. I tried sleeping at 12 midnight last night, but ended up sleeping at 3 instead. I think I'll end up sleeping at around 3 again today? Then I'll wake up at 10 later. Not good! School's reopening, I need to reset my body clock. Damian, go stare at blue!

Oh no, must be symptoms of my split personality disorder/ dissociative identity disorder. Heh, I searched about DID on Wikipedia today. Seems like I fit into most of the signs and symptoms of DID. Timothy tried convincing me that most people have DID, but I think I'm worse. I am much worse. Yes, even Mr Yong could niao me about it in Sabah.

Had another dream this morning, a rather peculiar dream, it had something to do with family and Sabah. I think the most vivid part I can remember was seeing my family in a hostel, which was very similar to Rock Hostel. Family includes relatives. We were all talking about acclimatization and climbing Mount Kinabalu. In fact I think we were in Rock Hostel, but my memory distorted the images a little. The Rock Hostel in my dream was standing where Gunting Lagadan was supposed to be, instead of at 1550m.

And the weirdest thing about this dream was that I dreamt about family instead of friends. My family members rarely appear in my dreams, and now even some not so close relatives were in the dream too. And I saw my grandmother in the dream. If I remember correctly, she looked a bit tired.

Help analysing the dream again, Timothy?

#126

2009-09-11T00:51:00.003+08:00

Heh, I've been trying to force myself to smile and stay positive for the past few days.

It started well. Now I'm starting to find it useless, and instead it makes me feel worse for masking my emotions.

Maybe I'm tired. I've been doing things that I don't know why am I doing it in the first place. For the past 6-7 hours or so, I've been trying to activate my internet security program, even though I don't have the box with the activation key. So even if I fix the connection problems, I can't activate anyway.

Well, at least my sudden 'enlightenment' got me away from Panda (internet security). Maybe I'm tired?

Oh no, today's Friday. See how fast time went by again? And once again, I did not grasp it properly.

The nausea feeling thingy is back again. I hypothesise that it comes back everytime I feel down or tired. At least, that's the trend. So, I've been feeling down for the past one and a half month?

Sigh

Nvm, at least today, I realised how valuable my rationale friend is.
-I'm not gay, I've recovered from 'talcum sickness'-

edit
Hah, after reading, I realised that there were lots of errors in this post. I'm tired.

#125

2009-09-10T19:11:00.005+08:00

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故意让我生气，
作弄我，打扰我。

有好几次，我真的很想问妈妈：
妈米，你怎样忍他忍了整16年呢？

Go on, read this. If you want to know what ~~your son~~ I really feel about you.

My keys are left in another fairy tale.

I'm angry.
_{And hurt.}

#124

2009-09-10T00:21:00.002+08:00

Wrong post numbering again :/

Still have not gotten my momentum back. Somehow, Sabah may have 'screwed' my life a little?

I'm now obsessed with stuff like '命中注定我爱你'!
Hee, the song is damn cute!

九十九次我爱他！

The whole show is damn cute! OMG!

Okay, that didn't help, especially since I've just been burdened with loads of election work and my dad and sister are teaming up to create some trouble for me...

Note to self:
JIAYOU!

Note to Cheerlead-ed:
Stay positive!

#123

2009-09-08T23:11:00.012+08:00

Well, moodswings again today.

Fb quizzes say I have hopeless depression, multiple personalities, and a strong possibility of having OCD.
(Should I use '-.-', ':/', or ':('? )

Anyway, Timothy, Yichen, Ryo and Cheerlead-ed, thanks a lot!

I'm feeling better now.

I realised my posts are getting shorter and shorter...
Maybe because I start to realise that everything is starting to feel pointless?

It is easier to let go;
but letting go is difficult.

Hee, I'm re-learning my heck-care attitude back! :S

55 days left!

#122

2009-09-08T16:24:00.005+08:00

Oh no, I feel myself crumbling...

Somebody teach me how to live life properly?

Note to self:
Hang in there, it's almost over. Do not collapse now.
(I hope I get a new start)

#121

2009-09-06T02:29:00.003+08:00

Oh no, I'm turning nocturnal.

Still feeling queasy. I ought to get used to it.

To my rationale friend:

Thanks for being smart, and for understanding.~~(You do know much more, right?)~~ I guess that's why I respect you.

Yours truly,
Your Subordinate.

#120

2009-09-06T01:46:00.008+08:00

Many thanks to everyone.

I'm somewhat better now, getting back to the norm. At least my motivation to work/ study/ doing anything productive is gradually coming back now. I wasted 2 days, and now there are only 29 left.

se⋅cret [see-krit]
–adjective
1. done, made, or conducted without the knowledge of others: secret negotiations.
2. kept from the knowledge of any but the initiated or privileged: a secret password.
3. faithful or cautious in keeping confidential matters confidential; close-mouthed; reticent.
4. designed or working to escape notice, knowledge, or observation: a secret drawer; the secret police.
5. secluded, sheltered, or withdrawn: a secret hiding place.
6. beyond ordinary human understanding; esoteric.
7. (of information, a document, etc.)
a. bearing the classification secret.
b. limited to persons authorized to use information documents, etc., so classified.

–noun
8. something that is or is kept secret, hidden, or concealed.
9. a mystery: the secrets of nature.
10. a reason or explanation not immediately or generally apparent.
11. a method, formula, plan, etc., known only to the initiated or the few: the secret of happiness; a trade secret.
12. a classification assigned to information, a document, etc., considered less vital to security than top-secret but more vital than confidential, and limiting its use to persons who have been cleared, as by various government agencies, as trustworthy to handle such material. Compare classification (def. 5).
13. (initial capital letter) Liturgy. a variable prayer in the Roman and other Latin liturgies, said inaudibly by the celebrant after the offertory and immediately before the preface.

If I had to keep a secret,
Would you be the only person to know?

Shhh!!

And only two.

#119

2009-09-04T20:32:00.004+08:00

There was this song lingering around in my head since last night.
I managed to play it on the piano. The tune seems oddly familiar.
Midori.com helped me identify the tune.

It was 晴天 :D

My computer hanged today, after I connected a very old external hard disk drive to it. The HDD got corrupted after I accidentally shifted the connection, which made my computer hang. When I managed to restart the computer, all my files were missing, and it was sort of restored to 'factory state'.

Somehow, I managed to find all my files tucked away in some other directory, and my computer mystically repaired itself after a second restart. If I had really lost all those files, Idk, maybe I would spend the entire day emo-ing, or sleeping. ~~Or maybe I will take that 6 Panadol tablets?~~

I hate afternoons. After talking to Johnny and flying from Changi to Kota Kinabalu on Flight Sim, I managed to cheer up a little. Maybe it was just a distraction, but nevermind, it's better than too much thinking.

Cheerlead-ed: I'm sorry I scared you. I'm starting to feel better, I hope, I just need to get back into 'pre-Sabah mode'. Please do not feel worried for me.

#118

2009-09-04T11:56:00.003+08:00

Yay, I induced myself to puke, after 1 month!
But my stomach remains uneasy though.

#117

2009-09-04T01:47:00.003+08:00

I suddenly remembered that I had something to ask my mum, so I climbed down from my bed and opened the room door...

It was pitch black. I then remembered that it was around 1.20am, and everyone was already asleep.

Then I sat down on the corridor floor, thinking and staring at the ceiling/ piano.

Some ~~mental~~ disorder I'm getting at?

#116

2009-09-03T23:37:00.007+08:00

Nausea.
AGAIN...

I guess I need more control over myself. Emotions kill me far too easily.

Note to self:
Please do not burn now.

(Selfishly)
Can the pieces ever fit?

#115

2009-09-02T23:22:00.005+08:00

On and off nausea for almost a month now.

I hope I (don't) have stomach cancer or something :X

dis⋅ap⋅point [dis-uh-point]
–verb (used with object)
1. to fail to fulfill the expectations or wishes of: His gross ingratitude disappointed us.
2. to defeat the fulfillment of (hopes, plans, etc.); thwart; frustrate: to be disappointed in love.

–verb (used without object)
3. to bring or cause disappointment

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/disappoint

#114

2009-09-02T22:38:00.005+08:00

Back to my life.

After 11 days, I've learnt a lot.

I hate my life
I hate myself

2nd letter:

Dear Me,

Please wake up.

Get back up and unscrew your life, no matter how impossible it may seem.

You're here for a reason, though you may not know that reason.

Anyway, I hope you do not freak out after receiving my first letter.

PS. I (hate) you.

Regards,
Damian

First time blogging after OB Sabah. Everything seems alien.
I'm not used to my life.

I will not share about OBS. All I will say is that I had mixed feelings for the course.

I'm missing the beach. I guess maybe I need to go there to spend some time alone again? I could just sit out there for the entire day. Watching. Thinking.

Neither here nor there. Please stop the torture.

#113

2009-09-02T21:14:00.008+08:00

mis⋅take [mi-steyk]
–noun
1. an error in action, calculation, opinion, or judgment caused by poor reasoning, carelessness, insufficient knowledge, etc.
2. a misunderstanding or misconception.

–verb (used with object)
3. to regard or identify wrongly as something or someone else: I mistook him for the mayor.
4. to understand, interpret, or evaluate wrongly; misunderstand; misinterpret.

–verb (used without object)
5. to be in error

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/mistake

#112

2009-08-21T03:20:00.003+08:00

August 21st reminds me of some important day or event, but I can't seem to remember...

I fell asleep in front of the computer while doing my essay, but woke up at around 2.30 due to a really bad stomach-ache. It's VERY painful, but at least it got me working again, sort of a blessing bah.

28 more hours to go, I hope I would be able to help myself and 2 other friends by then.

#111

2009-08-20T22:51:00.006+08:00

un⋅con⋅di⋅tion⋅al [uhn-kuhn-dish-uh-nl]
–adjective
1. not limited by conditions; absolute: an unconditional promise.
2. Mathematics. absolute (def. 12).

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/unconditional
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Unconditional_love
Oh no, I'm feeling really exhausted, and it's still so early.

2 more days to go.
I WILL complete everything.

#110

2009-08-19T21:04:00.007+08:00

un⋅re⋅quit⋅ed [uhn-ri-kwahy-tid]
–adjective
1. not returned or reciprocated: unrequited love.
2. not avenged or retaliated: an unrequited wrong.
3. not repaid or satisfied.

Timothy, thanks for teaching me this word.
~~Actually, I still wasn't sure, so I checked Dictionary.com~~

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/unrequited
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Unrequited_love
3 more days to go.

#109

2009-08-18T20:03:00.004+08:00

I'm afraid,
That I won't know the answer.

But whatever the outcome,
I hope you will be happy.

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有时，我想想，自己是不是已经跌进了心中的无底洞

HRM, you're not a prince,
There ain't a fairy tale.

Get back to your life.

On a side note,
Johnny! Congrats, you are going to Sabah! :D
It will be fun!
Remember your Mefloquine tablets!

#108

2009-08-17T22:54:00.003+08:00

Really long day today.

Ryo, Timothy and I stayed back in school to help Yichen with the Teachers' Day banner. It was finally completed by 8.20 or so, good job us!

Yichen, we would really help you, please cheer up!

Nowadays, time seems to pass really fast. Too fast, in fact.

So much have passed. Certain things are impossible to change you know.
I was just looking through some chat logs. June didn't seem very far away. It feels like June has just passed. I saw the countdown to O's: 141 days.

It's 70 days now. Half of the time to O's has passed.

I don't take O's but the countdown helps me keep track of time.
My exco term is almost coming to an end. Hang in there.

In 4 days, I'll be going off to Sabah. Now I start to wonder, would it really be an escape? An escape? Or just being plain irresponsible?

I've started listening to oldies again.
Dancing Queen - ABBA
I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing - Aerosmith
Hotel California - Eagles

Hotel California is freaking me out? It recently kept playing itself in my head, even though I haven't heard the song for almost a year liao. And I remember some rumours about the backward masking of the song, that it is an evil message.

The lyrics was brain-washing me, and the melody was hypmotising me.
I'm ~~going to be~~ lost in this song?

#107

2009-08-16T23:51:00.003+08:00

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的声音那么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

Suddenly, I thought that I needed this song.
I ♥ Jay Chou!

#106

2009-08-16T23:04:00.003+08:00

Gahh, nausea again.

This time, it might be the medicine or the crappy chicken rice I just had :/

Or could it be all the phlegm?
I want to go OBS!!!

Damian, please don't fall sick.
Not now!

#105

2009-08-16T21:11:00.003+08:00

I felt really bad today. Physically, not emotionally.

But I think the reason why I'm feeling this bad is because I was emotionally weakened for the past few days anyway.

I had the least amout of sleep ever over the past few days, and didn't have much appetite to eat too. I think I only had 4 proper meals over the past 3 days. :/

Now I'm sick or something. Blocked nose, dry throat and lots of phlegm-ey cough (yes, the symptoms contradict each other). And my body temperature is always around 36.7 - 37.0 degree celsius. Actually it is usually this high bah, my hypothalamus is hot XD. But now that I'm sick I notice that I get cold a lot easier...

But I lost 3kg, and managed to cheer a friend up a little :D
Though I think she's still a little 'emo'.

Thank you YFC group-mates, for accompanying me today;
and mummy, for bringing me to buy OBS stuff again.

Oh, and
Happy birthday, Brenda!

#104

2009-08-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

Argh I'm very exhausted.

I can't think properly now I think, I keep getting distracted, or my mind would just shut itself off suddenly.

CARP was. Idk. CARP. The first session some of us saw a dead body being carried outside. Today we saw a woman being brought to the hospital in an ambulance. She looked like she was suffering a lot of pain.

'Up' was, Idk again, erm bittersweet. I enjoyed the introduction and the adventure book scenes, especially the part where Carl found Ellie's note in the back page of the book. The director dug my heart with those scenes. I never expected 'Up' to be like that, I thought it was just another cartoon like 'Madasgascar'.

Ellie's note: "Thanks for the adventure. Now go have a new one!"
I ~~almost cried~~ was deeply touched.

#103

2009-08-15T01:01:00.006+08:00

Life's a mess.
Is it good or bad, I really don't know.

~~Added another item to my list of failures today...~~

#102

2009-08-13T22:29:00.002+08:00

I think I can no longer seek consolation from the piano.

If Ortus Council was like a relay,

My run's almost over, but I don't think I have contributed much. I think I slowed the team, especially since I'm sort of considered one of the 'main runners'?

I made everyone wait. And along the way, I dropped the baton lots of times. I was unresponsive.

Somehow, I will make it through.
Somehow, without damaging the team (I hope)...

And it would make me stronger.

Peng Ning, Ryo, Johnny, Yichen, Brenda, thanks for everything today.

+lOs

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#101

2009-08-12T23:06:00.005+08:00

Too much doubt. Haha.

Am I proud of it?

Rushing last-minute council work during lessons
Sleeping in class
Being distracted throughout the day.

I reached home earlier today.
I slept, I wasted time on FB and MSN.
5 hours.
~~(Nice one luh)~~

Tomorrow:
2 Written tests, one after another, plus Chinese 应用文 and Chemistry SPA.

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#100

2009-08-11T21:31:00.002+08:00

Postnumberonehundredandzero.

To everyone,

Thanks for putting up with me!
Especially my dearest Ortusians.

Btw, Timothy, tell me about your friend. I want to know more about him. The friend I met this afternoon, at the Ortus Room.

#99

2009-08-11T21:01:00.003+08:00

Two miracles today!

A child fell 9 storeys and survived. Here's the full story:
http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking%2BNews/Singapore/Story/STIStory_415173.html

And my phone revived itself! The wonders of Nokia! I saved all my contacts in my sim card and memory card now, what just happened somewhat reminds me of Dileen's SLC nightmare :/

Timothy, remind me to get you or Yichen to slap me tomorrow. Sometimes, I feel I'm not up to the job.

#98

2009-08-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

Brenda, Kent and Nat, thanks loads for dragging me out and accompanying me to mug today.

If not I would have just stayed at home to rot.

Sitting next to the playground for the whole day made me jealous again, jealous about everything that the kids have. And they were all so cute!

If only I could control time and fate as though operating a CD player...

#97

2009-08-10T21:58:00.004+08:00

婆婆，我的学生警察已经升级到　Staff　Sergeant　了！

希望您会为我骄傲。

我很想念您...

#96

2009-08-10T01:06:00.003+08:00

Got some new clothes today! Thank you, mummy and meimei, for accompanying me!

Went out with Kent and Jeremy and Kent's sister, his cousin, and his girlfriend today. Daniel and his girlfriend joined us too. Apparently everyone was waiting to watch the fireworks! We met Hui Ling, and Timothy and his family were at the Padang too, though we did not go and find him.

The trip was a little fail, we went to the roof garden at Suntec but decided to rush to Bras Basah instead. By then we only had 15 minutes left, and 'some people' were not walking fast enough. In the end, we went to Esplanade to see the fireworks, but most of it was blocked off by the trees, and there were too many people there! Sigh, we missed the red heart-fireworks too. It must have been beautiful to see it live.

We talked a lot too, at the spoilt fountain in Suntec, especially since we haven't met Hui Ling in a long time. She kept saying that I wasn't clean, so I told her I was seeing Timothy XD. There were some toddlers playing around the fountain. They were so carefree, innocent and loved, and they made me think about what Cheerlead-ed said this morning.

On the way home after dinner, we saw a group of teenagers messing around with the metal gates at Marina Centre's Gain City. The alarm went off, and we happened to witness everything they did. They just walked away like nothing happened.

Now I see why they say that every man is born innocent.
And why growing up is pain.
Reality destroys the innocence of youth.

#95

2009-08-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

Something funny is happening? Idk, I suddenly became popular or something, now everyone's tagging my fb and my blog...

Had an outing with Brenda, Shirley, Timothy, Wenyi and Zee today. Kenji was there too, but he left early. I wouldn't really call it a fac's outing as the attendance was like really bad, and the organiser herself did not turn up. ALICIA!!! :X

We walked around Vivo and Sentosa, and got lost a couple of times, but we talked a lot! Feels great to be together with friends! And Sentosa is like an escape from everything! We were cycling for most of the time there. Shirley learnt how to ride a bike within 2 hours! And she kept saying that Alicia didn't want to learn because she wants to ride a double bike with her boyfriend XD

I had to leave right after returning the bicycles. Quite a long story. My mum called me to tell me to go Clarke Quay for dinner with my grandfather, but I replied her that I would be late. Then she got really angry and said some not so good stuff. After she hung up, I received an sms that I need not go anymore. I felt really guilty, so I rushed over, and couldn't have dinner with everyone else.

Anyway, we were supposed to celebrate for the August babies, but Wenyi kept getting niao-ed about her 'brother', and Brenda was wearing an 'emo' shirt. Hope she has gotten over the guilt from the teacher incident thing.

Brenda, Shirley, Timothy, Wenyi and Zee, thanks for teaching me how to enjoy life again! :D

Today, I can ride my bike with no handlebars, no handlebars, no handlebars.

#94

2009-08-07T22:36:00.002+08:00

National day celebrations today, parade was not bad, though many of us including Hongliang sir felt that it could have been better.

Yichen allowed me to crash Daryn's Youth Council outing, but I was late as I was stuck on the piano again.

It felt weird crashing someone else's event.
It felt...
'Extra'?
Rude?
Out of place?

Then we went to watch GI Joe. I shall not comment on the movie...

And I missed 12.34.56 07/08/09. I didn't notice it as it was coming. How many actually caught it?

Sometimes I wonder why.
We let everything slip away,
We don't feel appreciative,
We take everything for granted.

#93

2009-08-04T23:10:00.003+08:00

I think I AM getting depression after all. Or hopefully it's just a mood swing.

Somehow, I get 'emo' every night after NPCC, and will spend the entire journey home with Timothy thinking, or trying to get him to rationalise my life.

My life, at the moment, is

Blank?

I've been asking around:

What's your purpose in life?
And then, what's the purpose for life?

~~Flirt,~~ Are you preying on three of my friends?
No one's ever sincere.

#92

2009-08-03T22:02:00.003+08:00

Sigh, I spoke to my heart again today.

It started when Timothy told me about the 12:34.56 07/08/09 thing. Once in a lifetime, but only for that second. In fact, this would only happen once, there are no other possible time/date combinations as special as this one.

Everything good in life is like that, it only lasts for that short, magical moment.

I thought about everything again, every part of my life from as far as I could remember. Every decision, all the best and worse times, everything. I reflected. Sometimes, I feel that life is toying around with me...

Stupid boy, you are starting to have depression!

#91

2009-08-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

I deleted all my messages today.

Including those from SLC.

Sigh, guess it's time to move on, though I'm very unsure if I would be able to...

Sigh, SLC.

Tap Tap is the ♥!

#90

2009-08-02T01:16:00.004+08:00

Okay, I was lazy, and woke up so late that I decided not to run again D:

Today was CRAZY!

Went out with Kent and his 'sister' and 'cousin' today, to KAP to mug. I felt today was quite efficient compared to the other mugging sessions. I did 2 and a half Chem worksheets in 2 hours. Previously, for the past few occasions at AMK library with Edwin and Kent, we would only do a few questions then start talking for a couple of hours, then realise that it was late and just go home.

Kent and I left to go Edwin's house to do an ACE project and complete some more work, but we climbed the train bridge for fun ><

When we finally ran down from the bridge after seeing some other person in the distance, in some kind of depot, we went to the bus stop and took a risk of missing the 74 bus to wait for an 852, but apparently according to the time estimat-or thingy, we had just missed 852, so we went up the train bridge and camwhored. The bus still has not arrived, and we decided to walk to the next bus stop.

Stopped for a while to look at the cars in the BMW showroom. I want a 7-series! A pure white 7-series with 1% black tinted windows! We stopped at cheers too, Kent got a drink, some non-alcoholic fruit cocktail, and we went on to the bus stop. Took 74 now, since we sort of have 852 phobia and didn't want to risk waiting again.

We spent most of the time at Edwin's house trying to cut out a tubing thingy for the home-made hovercraft ACE. I cut my left hand again, the index finger. Was really deep, maybe half a cm or so? But I sort of have some resistance now, and besides it did not get sliced off like my middle finger in sec 1. Oh, I have to go sterilise it properly now.

Left Edwin's house at 12.40 the next day (today), spent more than 5 hours there. But at least now I managed to complete an ACE project. Really have to rush many things, this weekend is really hectic!

#89

2009-08-01T00:25:00.002+08:00

I think I will restart my training again. I have been busy, lazy, distracted for the past 2 months plus. I gained weight, and flunked my 2.4km run. 54 kg now luh, must get back down to around 50 kg.

Tomorrow morning I will go and run, I need to burn fat! And burn some muscle in my thighs too, Shuang Xing said it was too muscular, until it actually looks fat. Must 猛 a bit, next year my 2.4 shall improve by 2 minutes!

Loads of work this weekend, I can't waste time!

Does anybody know what can I use to wash really tough stains on my hand? It is really very hard to remove, even alcohol does not work. It's brownish, an I think I either got it from Chem SPA or from fixing the Ortus Room's computer :/

If you do, please tell me!

Oh my, it's August already. Time really flies!

#88

2009-07-30T22:34:00.002+08:00

Post #88,
88 days to O's too :/
Seniors 加油！

Learnt Fire of Joy today, but couldn't try it out because I wasn't in proper attire, so I couldn't hold the rifle ):

Andre almost got into 'trouble' when Yibin and Perry kept spreading about the Sally thing. Even WongSM found out about it! Daniel and I had to help him explain everything.

Nothing else interesting, I guess, maybe meeting Wei Ren on the bus counts? Talked about everything random again, or rather, mainly braces. Then I remembered something about what Timothy said to -ahem-(win) after LMSC during the holidays, about him being a 'bunch of insincere flirts'. Haha, suddenly Hwachong high school section guys all seem very despo/ flirty!

Work now. Mr Toh tasked me to plan out individual 'paths' that each councillor/ CIT would have to take. On top of that, I have to plan out a 'council orientation' thingy with the other ExCo for the newly recruited CITs. Sigh, at least it would be an experience. This will train me to be future CEO/ Director of my own company or something!

Can't wait for the custom-made blazers!

#87

2009-07-28T22:06:00.002+08:00

Life is a funny thing.

I've been thinking again.
Thank you, friend,
for being my friend :D

Anyway I finally took my 2.4km run test today, did really badly, 12:20.
Much slower than last year, like 55 seconds slower.
My first C ever.

~~I'm starting to feel tired.~~　刘翔，要坚持下去！

#86

2009-07-25T21:32:00.004+08:00

I'm in love with 不能说的秘密!
I want to watch the whole movie again!

Had another dream about facs, but I can only remember vaguely.

Something about some event in school, there were lots of people everywhere, mostly wearing black t-shirts and jeans, and they were scattered all over the field. I was at the second level of the clock tower, and then I saw someone wearing the fac's shirt. Nick Kee I think.

I couldn't remember the rest.

Maybe I'm still reminiscing about SLC.

I'm having a really bad headache now too, I think I will sleep early tonight, and wake up early tomorrow to catch up on work.

#85

2009-07-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

Really hectic day today for me,
or maybe was it just the lack of sleep?

I rushed through the entire day, didn't have a chance to rest at all.
Or at least, I was busy all the time I spent away from home.

Skipped both recess and lunch break, and went for CAPE with an empty stomach. I think I might fail ): . Maybe Qingyang sir has a bad impression of me? Or maybe it's just as someone said before to me on msn, he's face looks serious all the time. So my guilty-concience scared myself.

Timothy and I sort of got into some trouble too, as Mr Toh wants to see us after school but both of us had CAPE. Timothy told him that we might be able to be excused for a while if there was anything urgent, but Mr Toh sort of got angry (I think), and when we asked Mr Ong for an excuse, he wouldn't let us off too. We were caught in the middle! Sorted it in the end, with a phone call.

After CAPE, I was talking to Shen Yang, Song Ken, Zi Hao and Lum Yi. Talked about everything, it was fun! Song Ken said he could help us build a super-computer for around 500-1000 dollars. I forgot the exact specifications, but they were like around 3 times better than my current laptop. And my current laptop cost me 2.7k -.-

Haha, the above is advertisement for Song Ken, I guess. He told me Wei Liang used to help him as a 'salesperson' in Keming Primary School, I think that's where he picked up some 'hacking' skills...

Okay, back to chionging work again. English Assignment 1 thingy...

#84

2009-07-23T23:24:00.002+08:00

Haha I went to watch Harry Potter again :D

Understood the story better now, after wiki-ing about the series when I first watched with the facs.

CIT interviews were finally over too, yesterday's batch, mainly from 1O3, reminds me of 2I! Both council mentors who were present then commented that Wednesday's interviewees seem better than other days too.

Sigh, I still miss 2I a little, remember staying back after school everyday to do work or just hang around with each other until as late as 4pm everyday, and the abang thing, and watching youtube videos as a class during recess, and the techie and his lab next door, and everything about China, and our soccer balls that keep getting confiscated...

Most of all, we were like deemed the best class around since we had 11 councillors and CITs out of 33 students, and although our results are very bad during terms 1-3, we always seem to get into the top 5 at least for the EOYs :D

I still miss SLC too, especially when I saw new pictures of SLC uploaded on facebook today.

Okay, back to preparing for CAPE tomorrow. Probably after this I'm going to cut down on blogging rather drastically, have been stuck on the piano too much, like at least 2 hours everyday, and I even sacrifice sleep for it! I'm sleeping only around half or two thirds of usual sleep everyday now, and for those who know me, I'm the type that needs LOADS of sleep D:

Song Ken, thanks a lot for the laser pointer! It made me feel like a kid again!

#83

2009-07-19T23:42:00.002+08:00

Went out for most of today.

Tuition, then YFC, then Facs' outing.

Gahh, YFC sort of pissed me off a little today. Daniel and I wanted to check on the street sales in AMK, and walked from AMK station to the opposite end of AMK Hub, when Chermain called to ask me to collect the money bag and the merchandise from some volunteers. We were given directions to walk to some 'alley' near the station. Apparently, we reached the alley, but wasn't sure if it was the correct place, so we called Chermain again, and were told to go back to the control station. At the control station, Chermain gave us some directions to walk to the alley to find the volunteers, which happened to be at the same alley we were at 10 minutes ago. We sat down on two red chairs, while waiting for them to check for the volunteers. Josephine, who took the phone from Chermain described the place to us, and it was exactly like where we were at, just that there were no volunteers present. After a little while more, they told me that the volunteers have gone to Plaza Singapura themselves and we should go over to Plaza Sing too.

On the train ride to Plaza Sing, Chermain (or Johnny) called again, and told us that there were 2 other volunteers that had to leave early, so we u-turned at Toa Payoh and took to Bishan, when they called again and said that we did not need to u-turn after all. So we alighted AGAIN, and headed for Dhoby Ghaut.

We met Johnny, Jun Hao, Chermain and Josephine at the chicken rice store in the underpass, gave them a few sacarstic smiles, and decided to abandon them to go find the other facs in Plaza Sing.

Felt really good to be seeing those familiar faces again! Brings back memories of SLC! Watched the SLC song video again too.

Harry Potter was rather good, but it didn't leave as large an impact on me compared to the other movies I've watched recently, like Transformers or Monsters vs Aliens. There are some scenes that were quite painful to watch, but I've grown stronger! :D

They removed a lot of scenes towards the end I think, but overall, I quite enjoyed it, it's magic! Can't wait till the release of the last film, so I can read/watch the entire series in one shot! But maybe when I'm a lot free-er :/

#82

2009-07-19T00:35:00.004+08:00

Dearest Sec 4 seniors,

100 days left!

Full steam ahead now, Jiayou, everyone!

#81

2009-07-18T01:40:00.002+08:00

Damn, I'm having moodswings again.

Sorry if I have affected you in any way.

Maybe I'm pissed. With myself, I think.

Hopefully, seeing the facs again on Sunday would cheer me up, and HP6 would be able to distract me from reality for a while, so I would forget the reason for being pissed with myself :D.

Or it might make me feel worse because of Dumbledore's death...

Another week down, stay strong!

#80

2009-07-15T22:59:00.002+08:00

Today, I did nothing except a Chinese 缩句 worksheet that took only 20 minutes, and taken a few pictures of fruit flies for projects day.

The original timetable was: China Studies, IHE, Assembly, Chinese, English, Research. Apparently, Wangdk and Mr Adrian Chan were absent, assembly and research were cancelled. Which leaves IHE and Chinese on the timetable, but these two periods were 'slack' anyway.

And for the people who took Literature, who have Mr Chan as their teacher, they only had 1 40-minute lesson today.

Okay, back to chionging projects day's presentation.

>< I was telling Andre how every year before projects day's prelims or semi-finals you would see half of the Hwachong population online on MSN because everyone else is rushing to complete everything too! I guess it's part of a boys' school's culture...

#79

2009-07-14T21:26:00.005+08:00

Word of the day:
Immunity

I've conquered Hotel 626 today!
It wasn't exactly that bad.

Take a look at this article:
http://www.virology.ws/2009/01/09/tamiflu-resistance-of-influenza-h1n1-strains/

Loads of stuff are happening everywhere.

But I learnt a new phrase today.
Ms Sunita's lesson.

Principles of Governance:
Anticipate Change; Stay Relevant. ><

#78

2009-07-13T23:41:00.005+08:00

Yeap, it's all over school now.

More of my friends are getting it! D:
I don't want to reveal their identities here.

Apparently, Timothy and I have had VERY close contact with the few confirmed cases, but we are somewhat immune, because the incubation period is long over and we still did not display any signs of it? Maybe we are being carriers?

BUT
I don't want to let more of you suffer,
I wanted to take it on together with you!

We can drip tamiflu together in the same ward!

Anyway, I really think I am a carrier. This evening my temperature was around 37.5-37.6, but now I'm at 35.9-36.0.

Or maybe, as Brenda had said before, my hypothalamus is faulty?

Idk luh! My body is a bit weird. Eugene said that in his experiment, my sample attracted the most mosquitoes.

D:

Okay, back to work, Chemistry test tomorrow! Jiayou!

#77

2009-07-12T22:25:00.002+08:00

Today was a really busy day.

Slept at 2am this morning and woke up at 5.45am, because I was doing all the fb quizzes that I have been tagged in since like around 2-3 months ago.

And then it was Youth Ex torch relay. I sort of screwed the event up :/. When the bus was dispatching runners, I was supposed to alight at King Albert Park, but I forgot to, and it took me quite some time to realise that I have missed KAP. When I realised, I called Chenrui and was told to go there myself. The bus was already at the second last drop-off point, but I wasn't sure if the bus would go back to KAP, so I alighted and made my way to KAP alone via the MRT. And when I reached KAP, Edwin called to say that the merger of the 5 routes have finished, and I was supposed to board my bus and leave. I ran there, and thank god there were still a few buses left at the merger point! Boarded the bus, which brought us to Ulu Pandan, and from there I got back to my bus and found my bag.

Rushed to the YFC bazaar with Johnny, but we went to Dhoby Ghaut to change first and 'check on our volunteers'. Apparently we could only see like 3 groups of SNGS helpers and 1 group of RI helpers. We talked to two of the RI volunteers!

The bazaar site was boring in the morning. Except that we met Kailin and Song Sim at the bazaar! :D Apparently they live in Hougang!

After tuition, I rushed back to the bazaar, and saw some more helpers! Huang Guan spent the whole morning being so dedicated to his job that his bag was one of the fullest, like probably near $200 in one bag?! And I think he looks more approachable, since people actually take the initiative and approach him, while all of us have to approach friendly looking people, and most probably get rejected anyway :/

The bazaar dragged for around 1 hour, and by the time we could go home it was already around 9pm. I had to lug 2 bags of shirts home. But it was well worth it! First time I did 'hard charity', other times the most I did was like call president star charity hotlines!

Ryo, Shu Shien, Sheena, Zi Siang and I are involved in this YFC project, and we saw Kailin and Song Sim(x2)! Facs ftw! Maybe we should get all the facs to be involved in this too!

#76

2009-07-10T22:25:00.005+08:00

Yay, the first official week of lessons for HC is over, and I am still alive!

I've started to listen to lyric-less songs or 'oldies'. Awesome, but I've started to think a lot and become too emotional.

Sometimes, they makes me reflect, and often I realise that I start to doubt some of those decisions.

Went out with Johnny, Jun Hao, Jiang Ning, Joel and Peng Ning after training today. We settled some YFC stuff and had dinner together, all the while talking about every random thing there is to talk about. Scandals among the squadmates, THE H1N1 case :(, different characters and leadership...Johnny said I would surely have H1N1 by now. Not sure if it is a good thing after all.

Spreading the love, or spreading the pain?

We gossiped too! But I was really disappointed.

I thought you had changed.
I thought the frienship was healing.
But you still possess the exact same traits
that caused the damage in the first place.

#75

2009-07-09T21:36:00.007+08:00

Maybe I'm weak,
I've let you play awful tunes on my heartstrings,
I've let you bring my life to a standstill,
I've let you overcome me with emotions,

Maybe,
Maybe,
I should just start cementing my heart?

#74

2009-07-07T22:56:00.003+08:00

Note to self:
Congrats

You've survived the first day of school.
the first day back into reality.

:D

#73

2009-07-06T17:36:00.015+08:00

You know you can pen down emotions into a piece of music in the form of musical expressions, but they are never enough as instructions as to how a score should be played.

In fact, emotions can never be expressed as instructions. A piece can never be played as well as the composer; a composition is a message that the composor wants to express with his ♥ heart.

I guess that's the beauty of music.
Can you imagine a world without music? D:

Go away, Yiruma. You're too expressive

Thank you, cheerlead-ed!

#72

2009-07-06T13:02:00.008+08:00

Back to reality
(for me)

Somehow, reality sucks.
It came 1 week later for me,
and I~~'m going to~~ really miss the past one and a half month or so.

Sometimes, I wonder,
Why did I choose to be involved in these temporary reliefs
or so called fantasies
or run away from reality
and why I choose to go a little too far.

When I know I am afraid of what happens when it's over,
and when everything else comes back,
it's going to hurt.

And I know, in the future,
when I look back,
it's going to hurt.

And I know these experiences will never happen again,
or even if they were re-enacted,
they would never be the same.
And it hurts.

And they will be stuck in my memory,
nothing more than just a memory.
And that hurts.

Maybe I've just been listening to too much of Yiruma

15th SLC per[FAC]tion,
40 of us

#71

2009-07-05T20:09:00.005+08:00

Yiruma <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhN7SG-H-3k&feature=related
River Flows in You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jCSe66pWNmc&feature=related
Kiss the Rain

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XSNUeCM78do&feature=related
Love me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kh_2MXpNc78&feature=related
One Day I Will, Leave Behind

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQ1JAuBeVAE&feature=related
Tears on Love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p9vKjxwVcnc&feature=related
Do You..

Beautiful

Yiruma's compositions are so full of emotion...
I think they might make me cry if I listen to them on a bad day :/

/edit
Don't click on any link.

If you listen with your heart, you might start thinking.
Too much, about everything.

Or break down.

#70

2009-07-04T22:20:00.005+08:00

I was thinking the whole day again.

Guess I'm still holding on to your rope too tightly,
afraid,
that if I'd let go,
it's ten feet down

And I realise, I ~~don't~~ have never loosened my grip.

#69

2009-07-03T23:21:00.006+08:00

Another nighmare! D:

And about facs again! Or partially facs luh, some of my Ortus abangs appeared in the nightmare too.

This time I forgot how it started, but I remembered that it was very late in the night, like around 12am - 2am that period? Kent, Xingbo, Daniel, Timothy, Ryo and I were at Lorong Chuan MRT station escalator, ground level, talking about something, I can't remember, something random. I think we were meeting up to go do something or have some outing together, but I can't remember too.

Then some facs came to meet us, I think they were Daryn, Shirley and Alicia. We continued talking till Daryn, Shirley and Alicia left to go pick up some other facs. Kent and Daniel left too, to pick up other councillors.

Daryn, Shirley and Alicia never came back, and we couldn't reach them by phone. Kent and Daniel returned, but they didn't bring any other councillors back. We continued talking for a while, and waited for the other 3 to return.

We decided to walk to my house first, through this new path that cut through the entire piece of state land to NYJC and to my condo. We were just setting off when Timothy got pissed about something, and started walking off alone (dragging his luggage bag). Then suddenly there was this voice from these angsana or raintrees around 60m in the distance? Towards my condo that direction, and Timothy was walking towards the trees. The voice was scratchy, and was threatening about something.

And then Timothy got possessed! And I think there was a ghost or some hostile thing among the group of us at the back, and we almost got possessed too D:

Woke up from that nightmare like that, and my heart was beating extra fast. I still remember, 4:03am when I woke up :/

Okay, my nightmares are super random. But the scary thing is, the past 2 dreams I've had were nightmares, and I have not been dreaming for about 2 years already?

And the one I had this morning was like the first time I woke up from a nightmare in Idk, 5 years plus?

E-learning finally ended today, congrats all who survived!

Then to lab for experiment. Today was the most productive day so far, and we worked really fast :D Though I think I ate a fruit fly and there were some hiccups, like the fruit fly agar thing ><

Met Brenda at the OTH hall to do some work while waiting for the MAS people. Gahh I forgot the sine rule and the cosine rule taught last term ):

Upon reaching Plaza Singapura, Daryn and I 'slipped' away to find Shirley and Dileen to prepare a card for Kenji, then we joined them for dinner. Haha Ryo trying to look for us was damn comical!

Ended up eating together with everyone else at Nihon Mura in the end, and spent $14?!?! Wanted to go somewhere else cheaper instead! Kenji, your definition of cheap is very different from many other people's definition of cheap!

On the way home I had to walk through Lorong Chuan MRT again, omg, the glowing red cones and the trees were really freaky, kept reminding me of the nightmare. I chionged back home to avoid over-shivering.

First long post in a very long time! Could have written more but decided I needed sleep :D . Somebody (Timothy) please help me decode that nightmare :/

#68

2009-07-02T23:30:00.005+08:00

Yay, today was my most productive day of E-learning week so far :D

But E-learning is about to end anyway,

Past few days I keep getting distracted.

Thinking about stuffs.

Stupid me, stop fantasizing

I'm pissed of some hypocrite poser. I'm sorry I think it is just you.

#67

2009-07-01T00:02:00.004+08:00

I'm going down D:

Some funny bug has been with me since the second SLC fac's training session, and it seems to never disappear completely, only dying down a little and then coming back to whack me a few days later...

I think it has affected my mood a little too :/ Sorry! Especially my 2 dear project mates!

Not exactly the over-high and cheerful Damian now eh?

Month long medication?
Plus, everything piles up?

D;

Hey, stay strong.

#66

2009-06-29T22:46:00.002+08:00

Spent almost the entire day on the piano today :D!

I think I've got a new obsession!

Anyway, E-learning really feels a bit redundant, because nothing much is and can be achieved at the end of the day :/, I guess it is due to E-learning being something rather new and not 'developed' on, hopefully they can save E-learning till it actually works with the same efficiency during a normal lesson! ><

To those who's school reopens today, hope you all have had a fun day at school (with your classmates and friends of course, not work!!). Continue adding oil! Especially SN people, it must be really tough for you with the spammage of tests, but yeap, 继续加油吧！:D

To the facs, today is back to reality, our 'fantasy' sort of ends here, outings are definitely going to be much less now D: . But whatever the case, don't ever let the spirit die down, because it wont! Because we are all made to per[FAC]tion, the 40 of us!

#65

2009-06-25T23:32:00.002+08:00

NPCC ExCo meeting today, and clearing of the Ortus Room.

Facs came over to mug, at the Ortus Room :D. Facs were mugging and doing work in the front of the Ortus Room while Ortus Exco was cleaning the council room at the back.

It was damn unproductive...I guess the pool table and the sofa was too much of a distraction :/

And then Dileen got held back by the security guards, and Timothy and I went to talk to them, and according to the management and stuff, everything needs a booking now, and a teacher has to be present, and we are really bad kids to know the Ortus Room code D:

Arghh! Hwachong seems so 'cold' now! In the past, anyone could enter, and we could invite anyone to the Ortus Room because we had the code, and it is OUR room!

And it is all because of H1N1! The old security guards were much better and nicer!

The facs had to move down to the SALT centre D:

Anyways, facs, sorry for not clarifying with the school's management aka estate office and our teachers, then 害得你们需要走去 SALT centre.

Dileen: It's not your fault everyone had to move down, it's ours. Anyway thanks for coming down!
Shirley and Alicia: Thanks for buying lunch for Timothy, Peng Ning and I!!
Alicia: Don't apologise about the McSpicy. It's too laaaaate. (JK only lah! xD)
Everyone who came down to mug: Thanks for coming!

#64

2009-06-25T21:14:00.004+08:00

I had this really bad dream last night.

Didn't sleep very well too, so I guess last night really sucked D:

One of us was not there all the way through. You pulled out halfway through? But why? Somehow, everything was VERY different. The experience was incomplete. The whole feeling was 'wrong'. Four days felt like it was spent in some isolated or faraway place, or I don't know, it seemed alien. My youth council was chained up in some staircase?! And the terrain everywhere was medieval-ish...And it really sucked, every bit of it.

Somehow, per[FAC]tion doesn't seem so perfect anymore without you.

Luckily, I woke up from that dream :/ . And we got through, all 40 of us.

:D

(Don't ask me who that person was, I don't think I'm willing or dare to share)

#63 facs' outing!

2009-06-25T00:39:00.003+08:00

Facs' outing today was fun :D!

The movie wasn't exactly the best, but still ok lah. Quite a lot of random things happened at the outing too ><

And we all got wet! And I had to do this stupid dare :/

Crystal,
Dileen,
Alicia,
Shirley,
Kah Mun,
Evelyn,
Brenda,
Shu Shien,
Daryn,
Kenji,
Nickee,
Daniel,
Ming Kang,
Chuan Yu,
Woon Wei,
Timothy,
Yongda,
Zhi Xian:
Thanks for everything today!

Ryo,
Zee:
Happy 15th Birthday!

Wesley:
Thanks for coming down today, and helping us to take care of our bags and stuff while we were playing with water -.-
And for helping to influence everyone to take the Circle line :D

I do not regret spending the entire day with per[FAC]tion! (Haha I woke up at 11.30am, so yeap, I spent the entire day with you guys :D)

#62

2009-06-18T13:49:00.002+08:00

Slightly more than one month has passed since the 40 of us first met...

One month went past so fast, just like that, I realised that I have been missing you guys loads!

Some words (of thanks) for each of you that I have been sort of holding back/ trying to consolidate for the past month:

Alicia: Hi Alicia, thanks for being the cheerful/ zi high one of our per[FAC]tion family, together with Shirley, you two were the 'force' throughout the convention that lifted the spirits of all of us facilitators! Thanks for everything, once again, and especially your gossip >< !
Arthur: King Arthur! You have been a great friend, loved your jokes, King Arthur's Park, Queen Brenda (LOL!), 21slc per[FAC]tion, and all the funny funny stuff you have been doing at NSMs. Don't think I don't know arh!! Haha, yeap, and sprinting with you after Fac's training, and dinner at Prince. Thanks for being part of 15slc per[FAC]tion!!
Brandon: Hi Brandon! You have been the reliable one during my SLC per[FAC]tion experience, really appreciated your contributions for the entire SLC. Thanks for cooperating during the performance rehearsals, and for being part of 15slc per[FAC]tion!
Brenda: Hi Brenda, you are really thoughtful! Thanks for the letters you prepared for everyone of us, for helping to choreograph the ballroom segment of the performance, for coming down to the rather unproductive performance choreography/ practise and fac's song and cheer 'brainstorming' session, and for your jokes and all! You are an amazing facilitator (compare the notes you took in your handbook compared to everyone else's), and once again, thanks for being part of our per[FAC]tion family! Btw, its ok to be sensitive, (I think I'm quite sensitive too :/) it may be a good thing..don't emo about anything, k!?)
Celine: Hi Celine, thanks for being part of 15slc per[FAC]tion! Heh, sorry for not introducing myself properly on the second Fac's training (23rd May), I was having some flu-ish thing and wanted to quarantine myself :S. Anyway you are a great friend, hope to know you more through more Fac's outings!
Chuanyu: Hi Chuanyu! Thanks for being such a nice senior! You are perma cheerful! And you always seem to offer a helping hand to everyone :D! Sorry for waiting for me to borrow a blazer, and for helping me bring my blazer from SALT to Prince when I left it there after performance rehearsal. Your participation per[FAC]tion is deeply appreciated!
Crystal: Crystal! Thanks for being super zi high, and for influencing everyone else to be high too! Bubblegum BAZOOKA ZOOKA BUBBLEGUM!! Haha!! Oh and thanks for supporting 2010 HSC, and coming down for one of Kenji and my rather fail session of settling the performance and fac's song and cheer before the convention...and for being part of our per[FAC]tion family!
Daniel: Abang Daniel! Missed fooling around with you at the back of Ortus room during fac's trainings. LOL! Enjoyed your humour, and your pwnage solo for the performance! The crowd screamed like crazy! You more or less saved my noob choreography of the performance! Once again, thanks for being part of 15slc per[FAC]tion!
Daryn: Hi Daryn, you are another reliable person I know I can turn to throughout the convention! Thanks for coming down to join us at the SALT centre and later at the council room during E-learning day, to learn/ choreograph the dance, think of the fac's song, and the cheer, though that session wasn't very productive :S. Help me thank your father again for fetching me home after dinner at Prince, and thank YOU, for being part of our per[FAC]tion family!
Dileen: Hi Dileen! Thank you for being part of per[FAC]tion, and highing your way though! Once again, happy sweet sixteen! Sorry I wasn't able to join you all to celebrate your birthday :( . Anyway, having you around as one of us was fun, thanks for going for the very first Fac's outing, gave Wenyi some support >< !
Evelyn: Hi Evelyn! Thanks for being such an amazing head fac! Haha, I heard that your youth council's participants knew all the facilitators, unlike my youth council :( . Anyway, you are really active in SLC stuffs, even in those late night mass convos where we would talk about random stuff and scandals >< ! Once again, thanks for being part of 15slc per[FAC]tion!
Jia Yun: Hi Jia Yun! Thanks for being part of our per[FAC]tion family! You are really dedicated to your job as a facilitator, and I enjoyed working with you in the same youth council. You really mugged the facilitator's handbook thoroughly, and your contributions to SLC were appreciated! Btw, I still have your thumbdrive, without the cap :S (don't kill me). I'll pass it to you at next week's fac's outing?
Kailin: Hi Kailin! Well I don't really know you very much yet, but I hope I will get to do so at the future fac's outing :D! Thanks for being the sweet innocent fac in our per[FAC]tion family that we all know can be trusted, and for your contributions for SLC. Thank you for being part of our per[FAC]tion experience!
Katherine: Hi Katherine, you are a great head fac! Thanks for being really committed and helping Timothy facilitate his faculty in his absence on the first day of SLC. I heard you managed to high his faculty despite the faculty coming to know him only on the second day! I will never forget the day we (Alicia, Timothy, you and I) chionged to Plaza Sing after PK/HFS course! Haha! Once again, thanks for being part of my per[FAC]tion experience! Oh and thanks for coming down on one of the performance practise/ choreography and brainstorming of fac's song and cheer sessions before the convention too
Kenji: Kenji! Thanks for everything. We shall never forget practising 6-steps, me failing at flares, thinking of the dance performance, the late nights at the council room either practising/choreographing, thinking of the fac's song or cheer, and visiting FML and failblog! Ancell drug den FTW! Haha!! I miss going there with Libo and you to lag there for 2 hours to confirm the shirt stuff after CSM, and though I screwed my Physics test, it was worth it! The experience will follow me forever! Thank you for your enthusiasm, and your part in my per[FAC]tion experience!
Kah Mun: Hi Kah Mun! Thanks for letting me slack and fool around with Ryo during one of the faculty meetings after lunch on one of the SLC days! Haha your contribution to SLC is appreciated! Thanks once again for being part of the per[FAC]tion family!
Kimberly: Hi Kimberly! I dont know you very well :/ (I think). Must get to know you more from the future fac's outings :D! Anyway, heard from Ryo or DK that your faculty also very high! Heh, jealous! I don't have a faculty D: ! Haha, thanks for your involvement and contributions in 15slc per[FAC]tion!
Libo: Hi Libo! Thanks for pranking all of us in developed country, including Andre! Haha! And for gaying Kenji and I at Ancell's drug den, and dinner at Macs talking about all random things, especially our MSGs! Heh! I'm barely not suspended :D . Thanks for being part of my per[FAC]tion experience!
Ming Kang: Hi Ming Kang, thanks for being the cheerful/ crazy facilitator in our per[FAC]tion family! Your youth council is really fun, make me jealous again :( . Btw, you and Shun Xiang must teach me wushu k? I got influenced by all my squadmates who went to BSC, they keep doing all the wushu things then I must 'geng1 shang4 chao2 liu2' >< !
Nicholas Chuan: Zee! Thank you for being always enthu, and always leading all of us in cheers and stuff. You are an amazing head fac, and your contributions to the per[FAC]tion will always be remembered and appreciated by all of us! Especially the blog!
Nicholas Kee: Hi Kee, thanks for being part of my per[FAC]tion experience, I don't really know you very well yet, but hope to do so after more fac's outings! Haha heard from my friend that you can shout very loud, next time help lead bubblegum k?
Priscilla: Hi Priscilla, your faculty was very high leh, I think I dare say it was the highest in youth council C! Haiz then on the last day I debrief Leonis for you, I see the participants signing each other's photo frame, and I got very emo D: . Anyway, thanks for being part of my per[FAC]tion experience! Leonis or YCC outing must invite me hor! Or get all 40 of us to crash!
Ryo: Yo PRESIDENT! All hail the 37th HSC! Haha I really enjoyed working with you for SLC and (Ortus) council, thanks for highing me and the entire [FAC]ulty and really making this experience a more enjoyable one. Really loved your jokes about 37th HSC, and the few days where Timothy, you and I went home together on 157 talking about random stuff and the incident where I almost got killed >< . Per[FAC]tion will always remember you as our beloved crazy president!
Shaw Shian: Hi Shaw! Really enjoyed working with you in the same nation state, you really made those nation state meetings a LOT less sian, with those pranks you played on Wenyi('s hair) and the scam notes you, Libo, and the corrupted/ no-longer innocent Yilin sent around >< ! Haha, thanks for being in per[FAC]tion together with all of us! You certainly made the experience muce more interesting!
Sheena: Hi Sheena! I used to confuse you with Yu Xuan and think that you were sec 4! I think we know each other from PSLC earlier, but quite 'alienated'...after SLC, I really got to know you more, but still not a lot, since we were different nation states :( . Anyway hope to know you better through more fac's outings, or YFC, you are my group's slave! Hahaha!
Shirley: Dear, you are a really nice friend, and you always high with Alicia, which more or less influenced everyone to be high too :D ! Guess Haha and I remember the last day of SLC when we were eating pizza the two of you were trying to make your junior despo -.- ...anyway, thanks for everything, the note, the GOSSIPS, and for being the grandmother of our per[FAC]tion family >< !
Shu Shien: Hi Sushi! Haha first time I'm addressing you as sushi I think :/ . Thanks for being part of my per[FAC]tion experience, I really enjoyed working with you in developed nation. I don't think I know you very much too, haha, hope to do so in future fac's outings or through YFC :D
Shun Xiang: Hi Shun Xiang, haha enjoyed your presence in our per[FAC]tion family, you taught me stuff like one handed cartwheels, the leap frong thingy, and many other random wushu thingys...must teach me more hor xD! I got influenced my BSC people! Once again, thanks for being part of our per[FAC]tion family!
Song Sim: OSS! your extreme zi high-ness really brought much laughter to all of us facs, especially during the school tours on the fac's trainings, although we got scolded :S...BUT I LIKE IT! LOL, Yeap, your cheerfulness is appreciated; working with you in YCC was a wonderful experience! Thanks for everything! Btw, outings must invite me hor!?
Timothy: Hi current chairman! Thanks for a lot of things, including stuffs before SLC. You are a great friend, I guess you were like a support during the first few days when we (the facs) first met, because I didn't know many people around, and you were like my closest friend there :P . Anyway, yeap you and I gone through lots of stuff together, including Unit Camp, and for that I'm really grateful to have you around. Once again, thanks for everything (including your presence at the 2 sessions to settle performance and cheers/songs stuff)!
Wei Liang: Weiliang! You hacker! Didn't know that you knew Song Ken and were hackers with him! Haha joking only! I guess you are the fun type of person too, just that I don't know you very well yet :/ . Hopefully will get to know you better in future outings lah, and then maybe you can teach me how to hack also? And I can tell you stories about Song Ken's hacking carreer in Hwa Chong >< ! Anyway, thanks for being in per[FAC]tion together with all of us!
Wenyi: Hi Wenyi, thanks for being the cheerful, friendly and approachable friend in per[FAC]tion [FAC]ulty, and for helping to choreograph the performance. And err thanks for going down for one of the rather fail sessions where Kenji and I tried to get people down to choreograph/ practise performance and settle the fac's song and cheer, but yeap fail because there was no solid agenda to adhere to and everyone daoed our messages -.- . Anyway, you will be remembered, kakak!
Woon Wei: Hi Leon! >< The niaoing of Leon Look on the very first fac's training has become sort of a strong 'first' impression that I have for you liao...and not forgetting your Kay Hian face or the octopus eyeball thing :D ! Working with you in the same nation state was fun! I think I a bit envious of you youth council too because they all quite high, at least I think net high-ness higher than mine lah. Thanks for entertaining us during nation state meetings, and prompting me to write the note thingy for each of the faculties under youth council C. Thanks again, for everything!
Yan Liang: Hi Yan Liang! You have been a really nice friend/ senior thoughtout SLC, the innocent/ decent one out there whom we can all trust :) . Anyway, I dont think I know you very well yet leh :S, hope to do so in future fac's outings! Thanks for being part of 15slc per[FAC]tion!
Yi Lin: Hi Yi Lin! I really enjoyed working with you and youth council B in the same nation state! You, Shaw Shian and Libo...haha three of you made nation state meetings more 'lively' :D ! And I was quite shocked when I found out from Katherine and Sheena that you were the innocent type when they followed me to 'crash' developed nation's NSM :P Haha anyway thanks for being part of my per[FAC]tion experience!
Yongda: Hi Yongda! Thanks for being another funny persong in our per[FAC]tion family! Argh, I can't remember any special incident that happened for me to talk about leh, but I guess yeap the impression I have of you is that you are the fun/ funny type lah. Enjoyed working together with you as this year's SLC facs, and hope to know you better in the future!
Yu Xuan: Hi Yu Xuan! Haha as mentioned earlier I used to confuse you with Sheena, don't know why too :S . Anyway I guess we didn't really talk much throughout SLC, and I don't know you very well too, hope we can get to know each other more in future fac's outings, then I can clearly separate you and Sheena :X
Zhi Xian: THREE CHEERS FOR KNEE SWAP! Haha, you are damn funny and cute! Especially when you zi lian! Enjoyed everything with you, from knee swapping to zi lian-ing and stuff. Not forgetting your pwnage mechanical icebox, and the discussion about making you do kneeswap while everyone else dances the ballroom part or putting you as one of the gay pairs! >< Thanks for being the 'joker' of our per[FAC]tion family (no offence!) and for your amazing photo shooting skills! Without you, per[FAC]tion wouldn't be so perfect anymore...
Zi Siang:Hi Zi Siang, I think you are damn cool! Haha, you and your 1.8 million dollar budget! I need to know you guys (RV guys) more lah, you and Wei Liang seem to know some people that I know too, in Hwa Chong...you know Jun Hao right? Anyway yeap, hope I can know you better through future fac's outings and thanks for being part of our per[FAC]tion family!

Haha as you all can see, I feel that I don't really know some of you very well yet, but as mentioned before, lets keep the SLC fire burning! More fac's outings! Fac's chalet! Then all of us can really bond together as a [FAC]ulty that was really made to per[FAC]tion!

#61 ♥ 15slc; per[FAC]tion

2009-06-08T20:30:00.008+08:00

I shall dedicate this post to all of 15th SLC per[FAC]tion! <333

D: I really miss SLC...

Those crazy fac trainings,
The school tours that we disrupted :S,
Going to the drug-den to get the shirt printed,
The less than-expected-turnout at dance rehearsals before the convention
(Really should thank Timothy, Zhi Xian, Song Sim, Chuanyu, Yongda, Daryn, Brandon Katherine and Brenda for coming down! Not forgetting Kenji and Wenyi!)
and
The very first facs' outing :/,
Zi Bei-ing at Unit Camp on the first day of SLC D:,
The impromptu dance rehearsals after each day of SLC,
The crazy cheers!,
The 2010 HSC President and Vice President thingy,
Rolling up our blazer sleeves!,
Zi highing with each other :D,
Zi Siang's 1.8m budget, and Arthur's 10k,
Song Sim, Jia Yun, Priscilla, Esther,
Lousy scribing at YCMs :S,
Prank note passing at NSMs :D,
Prank note passing again at closing ceremony ><,
Super human chain at GF,
Managing to pull off a performance at GF,
Emoing at debrief, on Priscilla's behalf,
Emoing again with the facs,
Camwhoring with Zhi Xian :D,
Pizza and spending time together at HP room :D,
Saying goodbye D;,
Mass convos of fac power!,
The countless facebook pictures :D!

Yeap, I really miss all of you :O

Timothy, Zhi Xian, DK, Woon Wei, Shaw Shian, Libo, Yi Lin, Kai Lin, Crystal, Chuan, Kee, Chuanyu, Shirley, Wei Liang, Alicia, Kimberly, Zi Siang, Ryo, Brenda, Celine, Shu Shien, Wenyi, Sheena, Yu Xuan, Katherine, Kah Mun, Kenji, Ming Kang, Arthur, Evelyn, Jia Yun, Song Sim, Priscilla, Dileen, Yan Liang, Shun Xiang, Brandon, Daniel, Yongda.

I REGRET not bringing my camera. Hate myself. I know I will miss 15th SLC, yet I don't bring a camera to capture these precious memories. Happened for 14th SLC and many other events that are really close to my heart too ):

Haiz, I don't have participants, made me really emo, because I don't know, just lack the SLC feeling I had last year? The feeling of parting ):? The great feeling of something lacking within me, and there is nothing I can do to fill that gap up?

But I guess being part of 15th SLC per[FAC]tion has just been an amazing experience, you all have become my Abangs and Kakaks :D. I don't have much of the hurt from the parting feeling with you people because I believe, and know, that we all will keep in contact yea :D! And I can't wait for another facs' outing, or next year where we shall all go crash the grand finale together, 40 strong per[FAC]tion team!

Rewind and pause. Not ever possible D: The SLC experience has ended for me here ): Though it is over, we can't set off on auto-pilot and let this memories steer off into nothingness! Let us control how we want life after SLC to be, making this experience last forever!. Let these memories continue playing a better song after another!

Fate has forced us to be together in this, it shall continue forever and ever! :D

BUBBLEGUM BAZOOKA!
LIGHT UP THE SKY!
15, 15, SLC!!!!

#60

2009-05-24T21:55:00.002+08:00

I keep feeling like puking today D:

Hehe maybe I was too high yesterday?

The past week was event-full, we must have pumped over 300 if the sirs kept their promise. I have a feeling we held pumping position for at least half an hour too,and on Friday we were in pumping position in front of the clocktower there, which was freaking hot, it felt like touching a kettle that only cooled down for around 2-5 minutes like that. My palms almost had blisters D:

SLC briefing yesterday made me really high, though PN was overly agitated at minor things, and was treating the facs as NCC cadets or something. I think the facs that were scolded by him were quite pissed :S

Hehe Nathanael was almost jumping around like Yibin, half gayishly, though not to that extent, still tolerable. ERR, sorry Yibin! :/ I can't forget that incident at the back of the class...

Arthur and I went to train during the lunch break, but I forgot to bring clothes to change, and his PE attire was locked up in space. So we were like damn sticky during the second half of the briefing.

Argh, still feel like vommiting. And I haven't done Mr Chan's work or the YFC logo. Chermain might kill me if I keep delaying ):

#59

2009-05-24T00:08:00.001+08:00

OMG IM SUPER HIGH TODAY :D :D :D a sdofamdf oaidj foasi oisdc asofj aso osicj a9ij aspoc aoisocijasd oc osd.sdofasmf >.<

hehe...eh? i think it is tomorrow already...

#58

2009-05-18T22:13:00.002+08:00

Hehe today was a fun day.

I survived 2 hours of sleep for the FIRST time in my life. Not joking, there were other times where I didn't sleep at all but end up sleeping very early the next day.

Got back Bio and Chem papers today. Bio barely scraped A1, Chem was B4 but there was this calculation error so I actually scored B3. Err these are my best subjects, my MSG is really screwed, makes me emo when I think about it, I'm halfway out of council and CSE :(

Went through our Chinese too, the lesson was slack too because I spent half the period trying to tell WongSM that I had uploaded 2 exact same copies of work to her, and everyone else was distracted.

Watched Army Daze for English ^^
Really can't stand that Kenny 'poser' gay guy, he is girlier than any girl I have ever met. ARGH!! Even Mr Chan was laughing at his gayness/sissy-ness.

Open House AAR was quite fail at first, but things started moving properly when Timothy finally arrived, Marcus started spamming stuff on the whiteboard, and Shen Yang finally kept his PSP. Jonas and I finally had our dreams come true >< Hehe won't tell...

HotBake is nice. Admit it. :D

#57

2009-05-17T11:49:00.003+08:00

3 broken rifles in 2 days :(

Got owned after open house. It ended early because of a slight rain but our behaviour was crap.

Timothy and I lagged outside NP room watching NCC train PDS before going for fac training at 3.

Hehe fac training nobody high yet leh?! Maybe first training only, I hope. My YC was very stone. We were allocated 45 minutes to talk about SLC concept but we ended up spending around 25+ minutes talking about other stuff like primary school and grades etc :S

Went to race with Arthur right after the training. We were EXACTLY the same speed, from the start to the end. Ming Kang gave the cue, and ran into my lane behind me. Then he stopped running and jogged all the way to the end to meet us. LOL MING KANG!

Stupid 12连拍 when we were waiting for the OT argh!! Got owned again when queing at Macs :(.

Thank you Timothy's parents for fetching Daniel and I home again. We managed to catch 52 and 58 respectively :D

#56

2009-05-15T23:43:00.001+08:00

Argh!!

Open House tomorrow. Don't screw up, Damian!

#55

2009-05-11T10:15:00.002+08:00

Gahh! ):

I stabbed my heel with a fork yesterday. It was on the floor and I stepped on it.

Now there are this 2 very deep wounds and I can't walk properly. Hurts like hell. It was so deep that when I got stabbed I could feel the fork scraping on my bone );

One of the wounds has totally turned black, and one is still bleeding a little...SJAB people help?! :S